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It's February!
Um this month is ending and I guess I should write down if anything happened.
I've been trying to cook more and I have a Dietician who recommended I use https://www.eatlove.is . It's an app to count caloric and fat intake but it also has a ton of recipes and can suggest some smarter things to eat while out. You can log things from some fast food places too.
Seems like home cooking is just generally healthier and has less sodium.
Jamie spent most of the day today at the vet with the baby kitties. They've all got their first shots. They just need boosters. So we definitely can put them up for adoption and take nice photos.
I felt especially useless and alone today so I had a bout of depression, even though things weren't too different. I'm not sure if it was the shift in weather, but I really felt down on myself and like crying. I was able to talk to a friend, so that was awesome. Logically I know I'm not useless or nothing, but my negative mind will just linger on bad thoughts. It's something I can't make disappear. It'll just go away for a while and come back eventually. I'll try to be better. And honestly doing things like daily tasks helps. but also that'll kick up my Anxiety to do more tasks... so I'll kinda get feeling either anxious or depressed. I always get embarrassed when I look back on the small things that made me have these feelings, but in the moment things feel hopeless. I could try to do breathing exercises more often.
Anyway, besides all of that junk I'm quite happy with where I live and I want to work on art again. I was motivated enough to work on an old drawing today.
I've been playing Minecraft a bit, which I'm not sure helps me focus. Haha. It's easy to get caught up doing mini-goals and tasks in that game. Sometimes it is fun to just explore and dig. It's soothing.
I've been trying to cook more and I have a Dietician who recommended I use https://www.eatlove.is . It's an app to count caloric and fat intake but it also has a ton of recipes and can suggest some smarter things to eat while out. You can log things from some fast food places too.
Seems like home cooking is just generally healthier and has less sodium.
Jamie spent most of the day today at the vet with the baby kitties. They've all got their first shots. They just need boosters. So we definitely can put them up for adoption and take nice photos.
I felt especially useless and alone today so I had a bout of depression, even though things weren't too different. I'm not sure if it was the shift in weather, but I really felt down on myself and like crying. I was able to talk to a friend, so that was awesome. Logically I know I'm not useless or nothing, but my negative mind will just linger on bad thoughts. It's something I can't make disappear. It'll just go away for a while and come back eventually. I'll try to be better. And honestly doing things like daily tasks helps. but also that'll kick up my Anxiety to do more tasks... so I'll kinda get feeling either anxious or depressed. I always get embarrassed when I look back on the small things that made me have these feelings, but in the moment things feel hopeless. I could try to do breathing exercises more often.
Anyway, besides all of that junk I'm quite happy with where I live and I want to work on art again. I was motivated enough to work on an old drawing today.
I've been playing Minecraft a bit, which I'm not sure helps me focus. Haha. It's easy to get caught up doing mini-goals and tasks in that game. Sometimes it is fun to just explore and dig. It's soothing.